Taking Stock

shereen , bruner remy &me

Sometimes it’s necessary to take stock, to evaluate where you are and where you are going. To take a little time to give thanks for where you are now. The glory is ALL to God, but there are many people on the way that deserve the thanks for their enormous impact, direction and encouragement that was and is conveyed to me.

Christmas of 2013 was a time to forget in my life, dark in my mind through paranoia, sin and ignorance towards God who was by His infinite grace-bestowing mercy on me.

It was cold, damp and dark both outside and inside, I’d had no gas for heating the house or food for some time. I had started to attend Hebron church not knowing what was going on, fear and confusion where in abundance.

One particular person used to spot me leaving early, scurrying away before anyone spoke to me and intercept my early exit. Her manner was so kind and gentle. She would ask me a couple of questions, I would usually lie by saying that I had some pressing engagement or that things were fine, I just wanted to get away, possibly never to return, but she would call out “ See you next week !” echoing from the walls into my ears, into my mind, swirling around where I couldn’t remove them. “ See you next week!“

Then, one week she gave me a present, neatly wrapped in red patterned Christmas paper and pressed it into my hand, so that I probably couldn’t say no or escape and said,” This is YOU! “

When you are down at the bottom, the worst place imaginable, your mind trapped, inside a living hell, you don’t see next year, next month or the next day, all you see is now and it’s not pretty.

On Christmas day after church, Bertie and I were home alone, no fire, no food, no fun, but I had this present from the lady to open. It was the only thing I had to open and I didn’t deserve that!

UNSTOPPABLE. Was the title, a book by a quadriplegic man. The ladies words came back to me “ This is YOU“ How could I be unstoppable, I struggled to set foot out of the house, which I was about to have taken from me, I was washed up, in a mess, maybe she got the presents mixed up?

The book is an incredible man of faith called Nick Vujicic who has overcome incredible hardships and trials by focusing on the promises that he was created for a unique and specific purpose. That no matter the despair and hard times in life, God is always present.

It was an enormous encouragement to me, so have her words been in my life and direction. God puts certain people in your path, my encourager and now, my friend and sister in Christ was Shereen Pitt. It takes tremendous courage to be an encourager, you have to have the courage to step out and speak out. Tears fill my eye’s whenever I think of the help this lady afforded me. When I was at the very, very bottom. I thank you, Ma’am.

 There are many other people too, but I will turn to my Bible and end with this from 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 “ Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us all in our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort that we ourselves are comforted by God. “

Amen

God bless

One Comment

  1. Fran Strandholt

    Oh a lovely heartwrenchingtruthful humbling and encouraging. We are called to share our life experiences when god speaks in our ear. It a lot of the time one can’t help oneself!! You just can’t stop yourself because you know that you know. Never met you den but know your friend phil. I’m glad to get these

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